After years of taking medications that made no noticable difference, tasted horrible, ruined perfectly good applesauce, dried out my throat, and gave me stomachaches, I've finally freed myself from my shackles. 'Medication' did nothing but stifle my ability to feel and Olanzapine is an evil thing. For no longer will I allow people who have proven untrustworthy to try and tell me what would be beneficial.
Trusting others has become harder year by year. Perhaps I trusted the wrong people, or perhaps people can't be trusted. But I am now free to trust myself. The psychiatric 'medications' made me feel poisoned. I felt far more frequently that something was stealing the thoughts from my head. I will never feel these things again. There's nobody who will make me anymore. What a relief, what a soothing relief.